In the many years I’ve been on social media I’ve had people write and ask if I’m “okay.”
I reply, “why do you ask?”
The response, “well your posts, you seem upset, or angry.”
I really try not to be insulting here, because I know people take it personally, but I have to tell you this about Canadians: the majority are passionless, emotionless, expressionless and downright boring.
They have this belief that everyone must be like them.
But I don’t want to be anyone other than who I am. If that means I’m ‘angry’ sometimes, okay.
I am a passionate person.
Bea Arthur once said of herself, “I am an open nerve. I feel everything.” This perfectly encapsulates who I am as well.
My sister tells me that when I was young, a toddler, I was really happy-go-lucky, and that I was always content being on my own, and using my imagination.
She said I never really wanted to associate with other children. That is who I still am, in many ways. Simply replace children with adults.
I’m really a positive and optimistic person who sees the best in people. Unfortunately, they often, disappoint.
It has been challenging for me, in my life, to live in this grey society.
I have never really had a desire to “fit in”, because I’ve always known that essentially we are all alone.
I also don’t want to limit myself; “fitting in” comes with a loss of intellectual freedom.
I’m very okay with being alone, it doesn’t scare me like it does others.
I am proud of being a passionate person. I am proud of being someone who feels and emotes.
Many over the years have told me I should be ashamed or embarrassed about it. But I’m not. I really don’t find anything about it cringe-worthy.
You have this one life. Why would I waste mine trying to conform to how others think I should be?
Unfortunately, I have to tell you, so many people do.